honestly, i live in one #$%&ed up family.. Why?! Honestly, I would be much MUCH happier living with my big sister in Gainesville, even if I had to clean..[sigh] whatever..
i hate fighting..i hate being around fights..i hate being IN fights..gah..friggin retarded mofos...my mom would be so ashamed of dana and I right now, i swear, it's awful. and I dont understand why I cry when things like this happen..why am i such a friggin weakling? im tough..but weak at the same time..i mean, i care about my dad..he's just..gah..and dana, she just doesnt understand how i feel or who i am. whatever, it's life. I dont complain about things like this.ok? i try to cope with it, but when it just gets out of hand like it did tonight what can i do?! --------------------- -_-;;


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My post from sept. 29::

SWIM MEET TODAY! yeah...i did 'good'...our team ROCKS! w00 go DUNEDIN! yeah..but me? well, I had to do 200m medley relay (breast stroke), 100IM again, 200free relay, and 50m breast stroke...dqed in 2 events (both breast, bleh..i need to...i repeat..NEED to touch with 2 hands...ok..2!!! darn it...whats my friggin problem..2!!) ok well yeah..other than that..oh and my goggles came off during the IM so i sucked bum but i went faster than last time..so..yea...ttyl bye gnite im sleepin over @ melissa n aprils..bye *kristin*

ok i'm finally getting around to posting and whatever..
friday--had to beg my dad but i got to go to sissy n ashley's house...we picked up nicole n melanie. mel n ape couldnt go. we kinda got lost but after a fone call we made it to their house. we jus hung around..ate..sis nicole and i talked for a few hours..til like 3..it was fun
saturday- woke up, watched the kids wb morning line-up hehe. teen titans rule! hung around..went to barnes n nobles.got a strawberry frap. and sat down readin chobits with nicole n dana. then sis decided to join..i finished 2nd vol. n tried to read the 3rd but we had to go to the mall.hung out..then nicole n melanie left and sis n dana went w/em to the car and i hung out with ashley and tayler..had fun..went to some book store.b.dalton? idk..i read 9 volumes of Rave Master!! woo! that rocked! thanks ash! that night i talked to sissy for about n hour..fell asleep..
sunday- hung out! woke up to windy windy stuff dude..power was out. read more rave master..ate cereal..got calamanci and had fun. deng sissy wakes up early and ashley wakes up late like crazy..later we watched charmed. played ddr..i fell asleep early man..crazy..we watched a sailor moon movie..i got bug infested cereal eewww eww eww..but i didnt eat ne of it, im glad i saw it b4 i ate it..nasty stuff..NEWAYS...we hung out..i had a lot of fun. i had to go...and sissy left to bring her mom somewhere so i didnt get to say bye to her..and i frantically tried to finish up rave master vol.9..still gotta read the end of that..
i got mortal combat: deadly alliance! im kind of scared but maybe i can beat it...it all depends on my skills! and i made a new dark cloud game..woo..ok..ive got this problem..my friend thinks im JUDGING her friends..ok..maybe i am judging her friends..but i dont want her to become like them..she can dress however the floop she wants to..but i dont want her to start acting like them just to fit in w/em..i mean..seriously..dont change yourself so u can fit in..i could care less if i fit in w/some1 or not.. i dont like preppy skanks..ok...i'm sorry for judging..and i dont really consider judging a sin..everyone judges..and its not like i hate them or anything..its just...gah..i dont like people like that..never have never will..i dont want any of my friends turning into that..and im sure none of them will..but..whatever..my friend just doesnt understand how i feel..i dont care how she dresses just if she turns into that then itll be like whoa..im not good at explaining things.

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this so freakin sucks...i wonder how next year will be...i will be so alone, i wish everything wasnt changing..i feel bad for lots of people..gah..life...why does it have so many downs!? [thinks happy thoughts...] riiight..

omg...who here totally thinks that foxbox has totally ruined one piece?!? its awful ok!! i havent watched it yet..but its awful!!! i read the info and they made zoro's name ZOLO!!! what the frick..its retarded!!! i want to watch it to see how horribly awful the dub is..i'll become so depressed if it turns into something like yu-gi-oh..gah..awful!! why do they need it here in america?! im fine with downloading it every episode..why cant it just be popular in japan?! darn it..this is a pile of friggin poop!! ._.

my father wanted me to take my last post off so w/e..i'll just put it private..i'll write about mi weekend later..or i'll write it in my xanga n post it on my blog..

yesterday was relly's b-day...happy b-day relly!! we went to celebration station! w00p w00p! and went on the go-carts and played laser-tag..green team won! yea yea! (i was green team w/kaysie!) and err..swim practice wasnt that bad..we ate pizza after celebration station...and...had fun..
my weekend..gah..i dont have time to write about it...went to melissa n aprils..hung out with april most of the weekend cuz melissa went to the PCAC thing w/the swim team..saturday we went to Barnes and Noble's and i read manga(i read excel saga and chobits (which is kool btw ^_^) and did my hwk.. dana was so annoyin..i had to sit accross from her..poor april had to sit next to her..heh. we drank strawberry frapoccinos and joey freakin bought/brought in donuts..hah. joey is cool tho..they were good..but fattening >_< lol..oh well i only had 2..sat. night we went swimming...sunday we hung out...cleaned...went to church..i'm registered to become a catholic..hmm.i wonder how it'll turn out..well i g2g ttyl bye bye *kristin*

swim meet today...bleh..not excited..swim meets make me nervous >_< haha dana's swimming finally...wonder how she'll do..hahahaha..

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hmm...today is International Peace Day!!! Multicultural club (im in it) had this cool tent and gave out stickers sayin 'peace on earth' etc. and stamped faces/hands, and held out posters, and did all that jazz.. i got a kawaii mcc shirt!! yay! multicultural club is fun fun.. i didn't get 2 eat lunch but 0h well i ate it in abril's room..
the swim meet today was fairly good...JV girls lost 35-90somethin...we swam against st. pete..joy. twas dana's first meet.. she had to do 50back and 100free. haha..
i had to do 100IM yet again, and I did 50m breast , which wasnt 2 bad even tho i made last..I always make last..i can never succeed over my expectations..oh well, i was 30sec. faster than my last 100IM which was like a week ago. So I did a major improvement. yay! Our team rocks even if we always lose, cuz we are kick arse like that ok... GO DUNEDIN!
whatever...g0in 2 sleep...gnite..

im NOT photogenic...or w/e.. i got my school pics back..haha...THEY SUCK..o well, i hope my retakes are better..swim practice was hard...i had to do so many friggin 100's...bleh..well i did em ok! even if i went slow, i did em..gah..work-outs...i didn't get to go in the weight room today b/c of multicultural club, next time im not g0nna go! ok bye *kristin*

[the swim meet]
I waited nervously for Coach Kelly to arrive with the list of events. FINALLY she came, friggin-a..I wanted to go over there and see what my events were but people were like 'find out later, we have to practice now!' so i got into the pool..(the meet was at clearwater high but we swam against palm harbor..) but I got out because I really wanted to see my events. I went over there and took the paper and read the paper:
Event 3- 100m IM - Kristin S.

Event 9- 50m Backstroke - Kristin S.
(what i was thinking..)- What the heck man!!! 100m? IM [individual medly]?! I can't swim 100m...I cant even do butterfly!!! omg, im gonna kill whoever put me in this, ack, i cant do it!! N00!! WHY ME?! I quickly told april..' OMG I've gotta do 100IM!' she goes "who?? me??" and i go "No...ME!!" I forget what she said but she pumped me up like whoa.. Then I quickly went into the pool to practice, so many people were helping me :) i love my team! they're so supportive.. they rock! i was slow like whoa though...i did a 'decent' butterfly after like the 30th time doing it over.. but yeah, still slow, oh well..i practiced! Then it came time for diving, Ashley is our only diver, she got 1st..w00 to that! then event 1 came along like 30min after and then event 2, then...event 3..my turn...ack i was so nervous!! The buzzer thing went, I jumped into the pool, butterfly here we go, yes i was slow i bet, so many people were cheering me on, i could even hear it.. 'go go go kristin!! come on!! faster!! etc. etc.' april was at the ending cheerin for me also, i saw her n almost started laughing, jeez...i was tired after backstroke but i kept going, no stoppin for me..(i usually stop after 75m but ya know..it was a meet..) For IM I had to do Fly, Back, Breast, Free..bleh! but i did it!! I finished and I knew I was last right at the breast stroke..but, what can ya do..the mofo coach put me in..well i guess it's alright. But right when I got out Caitlin came over to me and said that I got disqualified because someone from the other team told an official that I had jewelry on..crap..yes..disqualified..my first 100m..and IM..and i was so tired..and i gave it my ALL!! and i got disqualified over a friggin ring! but everyone was like 'you did good!!' yeah..but i got last..but i guess i did good..b/c i finished!! n didn't stop..i didn't get to see my time, but i guess that's a good thing. freakin-a those stoopid mofo palm harbor people..told on me!! gah, just for a ring..stupid hoes..that's why i dont like palm harbor, bunch of hoes...and mofos..bleh. My friends at PHU arent hoes but whatever, most of the ppl there are..screw that. I had to do backstroke at event 9, yah i got last..my time was 1min 24sec. >_< april had to do 4 events, she did great, so what if she got last in a few of em, she had to do two 100s so screw that..she was awesome! melissa is always awesome during meets so she did good!
50m backstroke wasn't bad..i was last..but i didn't get DQed....my time for 100m IM was 2min 47sec..not bad...i..guess..>_<..i'll get faster though.. just u watch!
ok well whatever..that night i slept over mel n apes house, i was soo tired..i watched charmed...hung out w/april for a little (melissa was online doin her project) n i fell asleep...so..yep yep.
today at swim practice we had team pict0res and i had to do 3 100's of just kicking freestyle kick, then 3 100's of breast stroke kick, gah..then i had some practice with kaitlin..william helped us. twas fun. ok well, yeah...im cold..i still have mi bathing suit on..gotta take it off...n eat...so..yeah..ttyl bye *kristin*

[im at school right now, all of the comps in this class arent working properly so microtype wont come up so we're allowed to use the internet..my stomach hurts, the air conditioning didn't work for half of the day.. 1st period my teacher wasn't even here so i basically talked with malcolm the whole period..2nd pd. we went outside..my stomach started hurting 3rd..gah..it sux!! well, i guess maybe im hungry. I have to study..the bell jus rang crap gotta go bye]


hello everyone..yes im back from my long stay at melissa n abril's house. i had fun there!uhh..thursday i had a swim meet, i didnt get DQued so yay for that! friday was an unofficial swim meet, so i went to that and learned a bit, then afterwards we went to sand key beach and hung out w/the swim team..twas cool!also that night i think nicole n erik came over and we watched 'godsend' which is a freaky movie..man i was tryin to read a connecticut yankee in king arthur's court over the weekend but it was so hard to and i probably only read a few chapters >_<
saturday we went to the movies and saw 'anacondas-hunt for the blood orchid' and uhh...kris came too! which was cool..
sunday- idk, we pretty much did nothing..went to church (life-teen), hung out..marcus came over! yeh..that's it..was fun..i guess.
today-- woke up, found out mel n ape were goin to busch gardens, i didn't go so i stayed at their house, without them..got pretty boring..so i decided to go home after like 2 hours of reading n crud. i got home around 5? yeah..and uhh hung out with kaysie. now i'm tryin to read.. what pissed me off about today was that there was a YFC meeting that i couldve gone to..if i even knew about it..oh well theres no use complaining about it now. Hurricane Ivan is definately not goin to hit us..not like i was worried or nething..but i have school tomorrow so i gotta study for mi vocab..crap i gotta study for spanish too..and i gotta read the whole damn book! i hate this!!!

man ive been too busy to post..but i'll get around to it hopefully tomorrow..for those of you who actually read this..bye *kristin*

i really dunno what this font's supposed to look like..im at school..typing..bleh..(in comp class)
swim meet today! freaking crud, i hope i dont get DQed again..bleh, that'll suck.. but i learned how to flip-turn so..i HOPE i'll do okay..
urgh..i'm so BORED!! today we had a fire drill cuz some oil spilled or leaked and idk if there was a fire but the firefighters came and we had to stay outside. and for half of the day there was no air-conditioning...waste of a day, tomorrow i have school but woo no school friday, so it's basically a 2 day school week.. :P!
um.. oh yeah, yesterday april found a baby squirrel and it had a bunch of freaking fly larvae on it..ew..but she cleaned it off and she's going to take care of it..with my help of course :) i wanna become a vet, so one day i might have to take care of a baby squirrel again..i will be prepared! (ITS VERY CUTE BTW..(THE SQUIRREL)) OK G2G THE TEACHER IS COMING..BLEH..BYE!!
*kristin*

okay, alright, i need to post! so here..i'm at melissa n abril's house with nicole and melanie! woo!
swim meet-
I was NERVOUS like a freaking mofo!! (>_<) i did horrible..i couldn't do backstroke right, i had 50m freestyle and 50m backstroke..bleh! i got disqualified in both b/c i didnt touch the back or w/e i DID touch the back..but for backstroke i didn't turn right or whatever, i cried i was so sad..cuz i mean i did awful, it was my first meet yeah i know, i only had 2-3 weeks of practice yeah i know..but..whatever..i suck.. next meet i'll do better cuz i'll have more practice so booyah! mofos.. i was not happy tho..not at all!
school got canceled for friday so woo to that..friday i hung out w/em all at hudson n we swam, played ddr, watched movies, n all that stuff..freakin-a melissa is evil!!! bleh to her man!! and uhh..yeah..we watched 'dirty dancing: havana nights' and i didnt finish 'prince &me' again cuz i fell asleep..that movie makes me fall asleep, i need to watch it during the day man. also i watched new ep of degrassi unscripted and RFR! woo!.
today we had to pack up n clean the house then i watched fuse + teen titans with melanie and hung out n talked with them..abril made cassava cake, tasted good! woo to that! hurricane frances wont stop me from having fun, i mean..its only level 2 and whatever it'll be a tropical storm if it hits us..im jus excited cuz of the win..woo!
yeah..woo..ok..bye..*kristin*